Lord, all my desire is before You;
And my sighing is not hidden from You.
Turning my Bible to Psalms 38:9-10, I read more
My heart throbs, my strength fails me;
And the light of my eyes, even that is gone from me.
These words, today, not only describe me, but fill my heart with hope. When noone else may see or know my heart-God does. When I no longer have the strength-God does. He knows my desires, my pain, and my failings and He still loves me; has called me to be His own.
I turn to another beloved passage in Psalm 119. Someday, I will memorize this entire chapter, but for now I will focus on these verses-
My soul cleaves to the dust;
Revive me according to Your word.
I have told of my ways, and You answered me;
Teach me Your statutes.
Make me understand the way of Your precepts,
So I will meditate on Your wonders.
My soul weeps because of grief;
Strengthen me according to Your word.
Remove the false way from me,
And graciously grant me Your law.
I have chosen the faithful way;
I have placed Your ordinances before me.
I cling to Your testimonies;
O Lord, do not put me to shame!
I shall run the way of Your commandments,
For You will enlarge my heart.
Psalm 119:25-32 NASB
This is the year that I will meditate and cling and saturate myself in the Word. I will breath the Word to my children and over my home. I will digest the Word, I will bathe in the Word. His Word will be at my fingertips and I will read it as I do my chores and as I sit to rest. His Word will fill me until I overflow.